Have you ever imagined a music video or episode of an imaginary animated tv show in your head while listening to certain songs on your iPod's playlist? Have you ever been instantly inspired by an idea in your dreams that you had to wake up, pull out your sketchbook and draw it out before it fades away in your sleep? Or have you ever (while writing an essay) have something click and connect inside of you to were you had to start writing then otherwise you were doomed to not be able to get the motivation to write that afterwards? Vision has been the majority of my life. If i had to explain all of the ideas that seemed good in my head from the past 20 years of my life, a majority of them would seem like impossible fantasies or child's play. Sometimes when given a restricted window of things that i need to think of for a project or essay i might end up in the mud of art block but sometimes that's hardly the problem at all. It's the execution.
The execution of ideas is partly the reason why i became an animation major at a college out in the middle of the midwest. I have so many ideas and potentials for shows, videos and art work but none of the resources for it. I have this idea that combines 2D characters in a 3D rotating environment, but the only animation that i can do so far is a bouncing ball on adobe flash...I want to learn how to do it, i want to become involved in the business, i want to become someone who is both remembered and appreciated for their work in the arts and culture of this great blob of life. I want to inspire and be inspired, without developing a cocky attitude about it though. I want to leave an impression that is good on this earth and that might even help spread the good lessons and word of God. I know that this is a challenge to take on, i know that this is a feet that is difficult to take and master. I know that being a woman in the industry may or may not influence where i go. I know that it will be hard to muster up the time, patience and cost it will take to work independently from school projects and build up a portfolio that is worth showing to companies. And i want to figure out the skills in the field that i can provide to a project or a work of art. I just need to practice so that someday when I'm old or i'm about to go to work or when i look online while working at home, someone will come up to me and say
"i really like and appreciate the work that you put into this, it's really inspiring and unique to me."
or that pleasure of pointing out a scene in a movie or television show or person project that i did and point it out to a little kid and say
"Did you know that i helped make this?" as their eyes would sparkle with wonder and excitement.
But i'm not doing it just for slight fame, since i know that a majority of the time people don't know the creators behind the curtain. I'm doing it because i have this creative talent that i need to express and this set of skills that i really want to sharpen. I'm doing it for the expression, the work of which i can provide and the satisfaction that can be the fruit of my labor.
I know it may seem like i went off on a personal tangent, but that is only a small part of why i want to be an artist and animator when i grow up. I know that i was brought here for a reason, God has lead me this far away and has made life so far very good to me. This was the only school where everything fell into place to which i was not in debt and that it had the major that i wanted to go into without the need for a portfolio as the key. I want to learn and see where God takes me next in life.
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